Life Stories.

28 September 2007

16th day of ramadhan ,

hello ! wow can you believe it its now the 16th day of fasting ! yes ! honestly , i fast till now ! i hope i can still have the strength to continue . so today is children's day ! but i was so like disappoint with ms ng . you knw why ? okey first was we only get to watch half of the concert as we are supposed to have lesson . thats okey . but the worst was , she didn't give us a single thing today ! i knw its the time to studied for PSLE but why can't she give at least something ? my classmates and i are did not expected to have party all that but can she at least give something ? i believe all p6 teachers gave their pupils something except my form teacher -_- . although i get to watch half of the concert , i enjoy myself :) i believe if we came down early it will be more fun . and ms ng is not supportive at all . anyway , i had great time with girlfriends today as well as yesterday ! we can't stop laughing about this discussion ! it all started with girlf GILER(chahidah) ! haha . we actually named ourselves ! haha . chahidah new name is GILER , irr's is SEWEL , marissa's is BIOL and mine is TEBIAT ! hahaahhaaha :DDD . girlf biol didn't took the same bus with us so she miss the fun ! haha . we were laughing loudly like mad people ! and guess what ? inside the bus there were quite aloott of people but they just ignored us because they know we are CRAZY !! reached home i went to toilet and pissed off ! haha . okey i think i have to stop now . oh , im going for a walk with some friends plus the some sch mates to vivo city ! hope i'll have fun but first i have to finished up the THOUSANDS OF WORK ! and i have to revise beb . nxt week i'll be totally a busy girl as remedials evethough after our papers . and the BIG MAJOR EXAM is this WEDNESDAY ! omg omg omg ! come on ain , study hard . teacher told me that miracle can happen at any time so i want that miracle to happen :) .

if giler , sewel and tebiat meets , close your ears because we won't stop laughing and can make you laugh too !

CRAZYGIRLFRIENDSARELOVED !

26 September 2007

i didn't blog yesterday as my mood had gone down to the drain as an incident happened between me and my mister ex- bestfriend . im not being busybody or what but i was just joking about it . i thought you can take jokes . we were bestfriends starting this year . eventhough we are not in the same class . we used to sat together during mother tongue class but not now . some even thought we were like COUPLES but we are not . it all changed when cikgu changed our seats . i sat behind while he sat infront . so days , weeks and months i never talk to him . so yesterday i was just joking like , " girl D or girl K ? " i kept repeating it quite alot of times . i knw its irritating but usually he'll cope with it but i just don't knw why he can't yesterday . reached interchange , i went up to amirul not him but went i got nearer , he pushed me THRICE i think and i nearly fell . i told him its a fact that he like her and why he is so angry with me ? he has changed . when i was close with him last time , he wasn't like this . now , his anger has went higher and higher each day . im like so sad about it . how could he ? i think he changed because of her .

sometimes we didn't even noticed that we ourselves changed . pardon me , i know im not perfect but i just want the best for everyone . as a friend , i care for you but you yourself didn't care as you are DANGEROUSLY IN LOVE . im not going to say his name , but to some girlfriends , you know who as he did that act towards me infront of you . i just don't get it . mister , eventhough im still mad at you and you yourself is mad at me , i still do care about you but i won't say or talk to you anything as you know whats the best for youself . i hope shes not the one who influence you .

mister , you changed my life and you turned me into a good girl , but now you yourself changed and be a bad boy .

24 September 2007

school turned out preety well today . it just that i didnt get enough sleep . you just imagine , yesterday i woke at at 12pm and did my homeworks . till 3pm i , still havent done some of it . so i decided to take a rest and watched jeritan sepi :) . cik leh was funny . hahaha . then it ends at 4pm and i continued doing my homeworks . then at 5pm stop again as to decide what we , family should have for break fast . then at last we ordered canadian pizza ! yummmy :::)))) and buke at 7:01pm . after that maghrib and then terawih . it ends at about 10pm and contiuned homeworks again ! i told ya i really have torns of homeworks during weekends ! what should i do ? hahhaaha :D . i slept at 1am thinking that i'll wake up at 3am and contiuned my last homework , and i did it :)))!!! . today went to school with my wet uniform .and even my shoes were wet . then continued lessons as usual . remedial ends at 2:45pm and went back home with girlfriends (((::: . thank god im safe now at home . now i just need to be more patience as the BIG MAJOR EXAM is one week ahead! come on AIN ! okey chios !

21 September 2007

nineth day of ramadhan

sorry for not blogging this weekdays as im soo busy !! i got thousands of homeworks everyday . its like triple the times i had before . so tiring . and at last its friday . i was feeling exhausted this weekdays as in starting from monday to friday . school days . the pe , extension classes , the hot weather and soo oonn . i hate the hot weather lahh . and it nearly make me want to break-fast but luckily i was strong . so after sch i had my science remedial . two days straight i had my science remedial . yesterday was even worst . it ends at 5pm man !! then i went back with dear girlfriends and it ended up with something not good ? okey i promise i won't tell . and guess what ? i had my results back . i can say that it was okey but still need to work more . here is the results ,

english = B

malay =A

maths=D

science=D

aggregate= 170

ibu was okey with the results but she told me to work harder . got any ideas what school i wanna go ? yes i do . i want to go TANGLIN SECONDARY as it near my house . i also want to go JURONGVILLE SECONDARY but its quite far . and ibu encourage me to go COMMONWEALTH SECONDARY as she was an ex-student there.i really want to go to a sch that is near my house and that school is TANGLIN SECONDARY . haven't i told ya that im a lazzzyyy piggg :) which school should i choose? haha:) .

omg omg omg !! PSLE is in two weeks time !! ain you can do it ! yes you can ! GO GO GO !!!

16 September 2007

i had so much fun yesterday :) . i went to nenek -j house . i was unlucky as my darling hafiq was not there . hes sick and couldn't come . recover soon okey ? most of them didn't come . only me , abg , haikel , umi and izzat . abg izzat im still curios about that thing okey ?!! he showed me magic with his cards . hw come you can do that ? ehh , teach me lahhhh !!! hahahaaha . you better come the next two weeks and show me again because i still don't believe that you did that . after buke i ate ice-cream ! thanks nenek . we went home quite early . i walked with ziekasista behind as she shares her feeelingss towards her problem . be strong okey ? you guys better stop hurting her please ? enough about that . i haven't done my homeworks yet ! i mean i did most of them but i left quite alot of questions ! hws that ? abg you better help me with this okey ? yeah im going back to mummy's house today ! see , i told ya im mummy's girl :)))) . i miss ibu so muchh eventhough we only seperated for two days ! hahahaaha . i tell you i really really can't be apart with ibu okey peolpe ? till here . bye !

15 September 2007

hello earthlings !

i really really don't have any idea why i wake up so early . usually on weekends i'll sleep long long ours :) . have i told ya that ? i don't know if im going out . maybe going nenek jurong house . and i gotta see my darling hafiq ! hes my cutie lil boy ! ehh , i miss him man ! okey , ain relax . my big major exams is in two weeks time ! time flies so fast . im so lethargic today -_- . its nw 10.17am . i have no idea what to do . i really really want to watched high school musical 2 badly . anybody lend it to me please ? bryle you're soo evil don't want to lend it to me ): . and mr khairul where's myhigh school musical 1 and she's the man dvd that you lend ? you have not returned it to me yet . okey im totally bored now ! i think i should get back to bed again . hahahahaha . no , i won't do such a thing because later stepmum will NAG at me ! update later :)

14 September 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR FRIEND , BRYLE :)!

sorry for not posting yesterday . i was being lazzzyyyyy :D .school was fun yesterday as teacher's makes jokes and so onn . and also yesterday was first day of fasting oiii ! i felt quite weak when i reached home and and i went straight to bed ! hahaha . after sch i had my remedial . then ms ng asked me to stay back for awhile to help mrs koh sticking those names on the table for today's listening comprehension exam . and today , english listening compre was quite easy but malay was quite difficult as the option make me go ," should i choose this or that ?" . hahahha . i was in predicament :( . today was fun ! i laugh soo much with girlf chahidah . she make me go crazy ! ehh bitch , stop it okey ? hahahha . what emelia said is true and thanks senior . i have to treasure it for the last time . so during the break all malay pupils went to talent's corner and seat . i was being a good student as im doing my homework that time . haha . mdm seah saw me and i smiled to her . she asked me hws the test and i went okey . she only asked me lahh oiii ! hahaha . really . that time sport day she also supported me by saying ," run as fast as you could okey ? i'll support you ". hahaha . she like knws quite alot about me ! really . she knws that time i dance for the occasion , she knws i won the 100 meter race , she knws that im a ropeskipper and she also knws which class im from ! hahaha . ehh , no vice-principal knw you that best right ? but she did . hahaha . so went up to hall and wait for a long time . my butt were pain . its like 15mins sitting down . ohh amirul , awk jgn stress k ? azmi stop kacau die lahh ! amirul is my best boy-friend and ppl around us were like always jealous or something . ehh , its not wrong to talk to your boy-friend awak , kite right ? some goes eeeeee . whatever . so i went home with girlf chahidah again . reached interchange theres this group of boys from yuhua sec , i think , tk puase . and they were like still smiling going to the shop and buy lollipop . such a shame . then after that theres also this group of boys from new town sec . the yuhua boys say something to one of the new town boys and it end up that they fight infront of me and girlf ! i was like ehh , diam lahh , nk gado gado tempat lain lahh . fortunately , our bus came , and i shouted to them , ehh puase bergado batal tau , and the bus door close . i don't knw if they heard it or not . but when i was in the bus , some boys starred at me . i don't care . hahahhahahhaaha :::))) . and they all are MALAYS. and and ade hati nk raye . stupid act . i've plenty of homeworks to do . ohh , shitt im going to father's house today ::::(((( . what a cold weather ! i think i should take a nap ! bye !

ohh , happy birthday friend =)!

12 September 2007

ibu , i'll promise to be a good girl :)

much happier today :) . classes just now was alright as there were jokes and so onn . i'll still talk to them but we're not as close as last time . oh , i've just finished talking to boyf as he misses me alooootttt ! hahahaha . we'll meet after puase and we promise that . and the big major exam also ends before hari raya (: . and omg , time flies so fast ! and tmrrw is our first day fasting ! i swear it'll be a tiring day for us . so after sch , ibu fetched me from sch as to teman her to posb and that i meett thattt STEPMUM ! i was what ? she didn't even noticed us . so we quickly got out of the posb bank and ran . hahaha . ibu run quite cute okey ? i think i have to stop as i have torns of homeworks to do ! and and i must revise . so now my aim is to get at least an express . i really hope i can . ibu , i'll promised to make you proud and sorry what i've done in the past and i also promise to be a good girl and behave myself :) . i'll promise , ibu .

11 September 2007

i was not in the mood today and i just don't know why . im like so lazy to open my mouth . and girlfriends asked why today im like soo quiet . see , if i talk alot , ppl say i over , if i talk less ppl keep asking me why im like that . i just don't understand ppl . okey whatever . im really not in the mood . i just don't know . i kept thinking about him soo much as i did not have a chance to meet him . im busy but hes not . im sorry syg . maybe after my big major exam k ? and nw im thinking that girlfriends are here for me only for fun and laughter but not when im in tears or in trouble . who can understand me ? okey fine i admit i've also been a bad girlfriend some time but usually i'll give them the support and advice when they got problems but when the problems comes to me , nobody is here . i feel like kekok telling hw i feel to boyfriend as he is a boy. i think its better to tell to a girl but none of them came . i've been having these friendship problems since i was in P4 and always end up fighting or something which will make us don't talk to each other anymore . whats the problem ? am i a bad girlfriend to you ppl ? i just don't get it . first , with the girl A and its because of jealousy maybe ? last year was with girl D and its because of her attidude changes and when i told her about it , she just say " SO WHAT , NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS" . nxt was girl S which she stab me in the back by making up stories which wasnt true at all . and recently was this year which makes me will not forget about it . isit having a BESTFRIEND always end up fighting or something BAD ? i really really don't understand . it always happen to me , yes me . i see some ppl around me which their friendship really last long and they were like TRUE BESTEST FRIEND . and im here with some of my girlfriends only for the laughter but not the tears . im like so sad about it . i think i should hold on to it and whatever happens , i'll just be patience as this is the last year together and i don't want all of us ending up fighting . i don't know what kind of friends i'll get in secondary sch . and the tease and so oonnn . im just worried for myself . i mean nw i feels like all the things are not important to me except family and study . even boyfriend , i think . im soo sorry to say this but i think single life leads my life better . eventhough without REAL FRIENDS , just family . i do love him but i don't love him as much as that . you knw what i mean ? and blog is like a heaven to me as i get to let out my feelings . and to those readers who wants to bitch about my blog or the things i wrote , just bitch about it. i don't care anymore . and and girlfriends who thinks that i've change after having a boyfriend , just think that way but i tell you its not true . why ? bcoz i want to be another person who have the laughter and the sadness together . ohh , and mum always said , usually friends will be there for laughter but not when we are in tears or in trouble . still nw its a question mark for me . i really don't get it whats happening all around me . worst still , stepmum and father . they just don't know whats the meaning of CARE and CONCERN . they just know how to care for other ppl's problems but not their own child's problem . actually to me they are just strangers whom i don't know . ibu , i want to get out of this situation . believe it or not , im crying .

10 September 2007

my BEAUTIFUL GIRLS !

well hello :D . i've soo much fun during the weekends as i got to see my lovely sedare-mare . but i hate the school holidays . too much of classes . hmph ... so saturday i was busy helping nenek , ibu and auntys at the kitchen cooking . but of coz lah i'm not the one who cooks okey ? but still im a nice daughter to ibu . ehh , i help them by cutting the stupid onions and all that which make me end up with some tears . haha . then at night i was super hyper active ! i play soccer with my bro and cousin . i always shout when i scored a goal ! hahahaha . after all the sweat , went back home , bath and sleep . nxt morning which is yesterday , i went to nenek house again as to prepared for the last time . and i woke up like 8 sumting okey ? usually weekends i'll sleep long hours as im a lazzy pig . hahahaa . i was being so plain lazy during weekends . so at about 12 the doa thing started . after that all the guests have their food . i was stuck in nenek's room as there was full of people sitting here and there . i'm inde the room with kakak irah , cik liani and cik masrina . we were like the bunch of crazy ppl eventhough cik liani is now a mother . talk craps and stuffs . then , they all went back home . and for the second time again i join bro and cousin with the soccer again . hahahaaha . and to day , lessons were alright . sorry girlfriends for not going back with all of you as i have something on . sorry once again . update soon !

06 September 2007

i really feels like not blogging today or even use the internet . today sch s**** alot and i hate it . ehh , at least i pay attention in class right ? i knw i was wrong just knw bcoz i stay back and makes you angry teacher but you don't need tell the whole world that im wrong ? wth . i was really not in the mood . she told ibu that i laugh the loudest and thats why she came down . i was like what ? ehh , i didn't even laugh . i was sitting at the corner bluetooh-ing songs from xueyi's hp . the hatest part was she told ibu that i play and laugh with the boys and i was like , " ehh , teacher you blind or what ". i have eye-witness . i admit my wrong was staying back in sch but i not playing with the boys or whatever . p6 life sucks i tell you .and even more she told ibu that i was behaving good in class and when im outside i was like the "these day girls" . you knw what i mean . she thought that im the same with other girls in sch . im not okey ? im not cheap like the ayam brand . i knw im a girl and i knw hw to protect myself and also i won't be like the girls who play and shout and laugh and do sort of things with the boys . im sorry once again ibu for making such problems again . when i recall in the past , sometimes i feel like im a useless daughter . always give problems to mother . i don't knw why . and im the one who'll always get accusse for doing the things that i didn't do . and and , friends just disappear when i got in trouble . always like that . are they my BESTFRIENDS ? shut . i'll confirm you ppl , tmrrw she'll make a big fuss about me to the whole class . just believe me . i don't give a damn bcoz i knw im only wrong in the part 1 but im not wrong in the part 2 . frm nw onn , i don't care about the ppl around me bcoz in the first place they didn't care for me eventhough i care and help them . whatever . ms ng , thanks for your care and concern but i'll prove you that im not like those girls you see outside . i'll prove you wrong . nw , i must work hard in studies .

oh , that fcuk friendster boy , look yourself in the mirror first before giving nonsense comment about my face . i don't own you a big fcuk .

sorry ppl today i used many F word . its not to you of coz . thanks for reading !

04 September 2007

Oliver James my second boyfriend !

im much happier today :) laugh here and there . today classes were alright . after classes went to mac again ? huahuahua . talking and laughing like mad people . one girlf missed the fun . then suddenly , dear priscilla and gang came ! pris , xueyi , shema and wan xuan . we chilled for a while before we go different ways . i went back alone . i mean i didn't went back with girlf irr . but i headed to the interchange with dear girlf zul . she left first as her bus reached first . left me alone . but but i saw some p6 malay girls and a boy . you knw who . i didn't sat with them . then suddenly , xin hui came and sat with me ! thanks xin hui . it's like the first time i talk to her . and we even took the same bus . reached boyfriend block and saw him in pink . i was wth ? he wore pink ? hhahahahaha . his cousin was there too . okey we talk about stuff but just for awhile . hes going to his grandma house with his cousin . see , i told you my boyfriend is NOT a BAD BOY okey ? =) gave each other a warm kiss at the cheek and i went straight home . im going to see him again tmrrw and we promised that we'll snap some pictures tmrrw . ppl i knw you all kpo and wanting to see his face right ? nyahahahahha . i was joking but i'll upload it soon ^.^ . nw im starring at this computer screen waiting for ibu to get home . im HUNGRY lah ! ehhh , i didn't eat at mac just nw . hws that ? sheeessssh . ohh , i want to tell you ppl a secret , i got a second boyfriend ! shssssshhh ! look up !

HAPPY 12TH BIRTHDAY TO DEAR GIRLFRIEND ZULIKAH & QURRATU'AIN !

03 September 2007

I LOVE THEM !

yesterday at first was fun but when reached ibu house , its a disaster . ibu , im sorry . soo sorry . i knw im wrong and its truth what you said . thanks for all your concern and care . im really grateful to have you as my mother , really . i don't knw why im soo stupid when there's stepmum . my mouth was like being zipped or something that makes me say nothing . like ibu said although i don't like her , i still MUST respect her . shes my stepmum afterall and that goes the same to dad . so don't talk about it anymore . so yesterday we started off at aunty's food stall and lepak-ing with azzy at first . only for awhile . after that she went to see her boyfriend which makes her sad in the end ?. i totally don't understand . whatever . today i have class . it seems that this holiday is totally not a holiday for me . sheesssh .. during our break , i turned out crying loudly .im expressing my feelings to my two girlfriends . i don't care if i look ugly that time because that time all i want was to cry loudly . i've been crying for like two days because of that fight with ibu . im sorry ibu . nw , she had forgiven me and i sholud be thankful to god . so went up to class for science and maths lesson . i think that time my eyes were swollen and it look really really ugly , but i don't care :) . finished lesson , went to macdonlads . supposed i have to meet him but it turned out that i called him up and told him that i've no mood today and i'll see tmrrw , maybe . hes asking me out tmrrw , going to novena together , but i don't have any decision yet . im confused . should i say yes or no ? somebody help me please ? gosh . and if i say no he'll be hurt . ehhhh ppl what should i do lahh ?? aiyo . ohh , i still have my homeworks which is not done yet . i'll think i should get it done after dinner . toddles !

02 September 2007

SOMEBODY ask me out pleaseeee ??? hahahahaha :D . im busy karaoke-ing with family . huahuauahuaha !

i'll update soon :)

CHIOS !

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

me !!

kurang kasih sayang ! hahahaha :D

fed up sey with her . im at father's house . hate when thre's stepmum . arghhhhh , whatever . i stayed at home for like one and the half day yesterday . before that i , bro basyar and bro haikal went to pandan reservoir ambil angin . but but i HATE THE BANGLAS STARRIIINNNNGGG ! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr . sat there for like one-hour . then went back with our MILO FREEEZZEEEEE ! yummy . reached home get ready to go to nenek house . most of them were there . hafiq , my cutteeessstt cousin lar sey . i was soo bored because azzysista was not there . so i sat there like orang bodoh looking at the television screen dreaming about my future . i really want to be a MOTIVATOR . don't laugh at it pleaseeee. i like being a ROLE MODEL to young generation . come ppl i'll give a free talk to you all ! hahahaahahaa :D . he finally msg me and asking me when we should meet up . i don't knw lar sey . its nw 1.45am on sunday and im sitting on this chair looking at this ugly screen . aaahhhhhhh . oh , sista nw busy talking with her BELOVED BOYFRIEND ! hahahaha . klah till here . update later .

WHATEVER I WANT TO BE